Thursday, October 1, 2009

Out of Sync

I'm up again in the middle of the night. I've been trying to sync up with the world, with no success. I'm unemployed (well, self-employed) so I have no reason or incentive to keep "normal" hours. That, combined with my chronic fatigue, has me sleeping all day and up all night. I have tried to go to bed at a reasonable time. I was extremely tired "last night" (tonight) so I went to bed and fell right asleep at around 11:00 p.m. But at a little after 1:00 a.m. I had to get up and pee, and couldn't go back to sleep. Why can't that happen at 7:00 or 8:00 a.m.? When I need to get up I can't.

So I'll find something to do. I'll add a bit to a letter I'm writing, and I'll do some creative things. Maybe I'll read some more of Barbara Walters' Audition: A Memoir. And then, when the sun comes up I'll take a shower and go buy some groceries. I really need to buy groceries.

I've decided that Rosie and I are going on a diet. We both need to lose some weight. Well, lots of weight. It's going to be very hard denying Rosie the extra food and treats that she's used to. I'll have to get some of those low-fat treats and just give her one or two, instead of the high-fat treats and give her several. As for me, I'm not going to buy any of the four C's (cake, candy, cookies, ice cream). My sweet tooth has been my undoing.

I actually applied for a job. I hadn't planned to, but it's a good job for me, and it's right here, near home. It's at the prison, but it's not a guard job. It's in the mailroom. I think I could handle that! It shouldn't be too hard on my decrepit body, and I won't have much contact with prisoners, if any. The pay is pretty good, too. The closing date for the job is this Monday, Oct. 5, and we'll see if they give me a call. I sort of hope they do. Still, I have to get this chronic fatigue taken care of or I'll never be able to hold down a job again.

Whether or not I actually get the job, I'll continue to be self-employed. I just won't have to work as hard! (At home, not at the prison job!) So if you need a website or some specialty advertising, let me know!

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